I Am a Product of YOU

I am a product of everything you didn't do

You are the white powder on my top lip

As my body shakes and shifts

Praying this will help my spirits lift

Just a product of what you didn't do

All I think, all I say, all I do

The way I fall over and over again

For the same no-good dude

Knowing he'll beat me till black and blue

I am a product of you

Each time I look at a reflection of me

A helpless version of you

Is all I see

Yet another cracked product of you

Still searching,

I look as if hooked

On the natural curve of my bloodstained lips

Layers of clothes

Hiding my natural born gifts

Ripped pants over my bruises

And heart shaped hips

I am a battered version of you

Each step I take is magnified

Hiding the pain I bear inside

Because of all you didn't do

I walk with broken dreams and head held high

A Broken heart

Pumped with fake pride

Infected with love lies

When reality is

I just wish I'd die

I am a broken product of you

How about when I'm hit

Or the way I scream

When beaten and kicked

And especially how my mind goes numb

When mutilated and stripped

All a product of what you didn't do

You are the pain in the bottle I sip

The liquor smell ingrained on my lips

The reason I lose my grip

On reality…

I am just a fallen product of you

You are the girlfriends I don't have

And the only male companion I do

You are the reason I'm cracked, now shattered

Yet, you are my glue

I am a defective product of all you didn't do

Yet, the question still remains

Who & where are you?

Lay

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