Poetry by Lay

She is but eleven She is my angel sent from heaven She came to me at the tender age of twenty-one She gave me reason not to run She kept me grounded She was the reason my heart pounded She made my life brand new She healed my heart through and through She showed me how to love She showed me what that stuff is made of She keeps me on my toes She won’t allow me to wallow in my woes She senses when my spirits are low She will never let it show but She always seems to know She amazes me every day she grows She knows when to lean in and give me a hug She knows when I’ve had a bad day and not to bug She jumps in before I ask She completes every task She excels in academics and dance She shows me what can be if given a chance She picks up my good bits and pieces She continues to leave me speechless She always wears a smile She is my amazing child She is my first, no one is above She is my first true love She is my daughter Alaya Before her I was a zero She is my...

Love is honest and love is fair Love is comfort beyond compare Love is always being there Love is uniquely paired Love is equally shared Love is passion if you dare Love is carried deep within Love is hard every now and then Love frees your soul again and again Love is giving and love is free Love is being you no matter who sees Love is… no matter what may be Love is You and Love is Me Lay

There’s no comfort like that which I have with him On this I’ve come to depend Our connection is stronger than steel Our bond is everlasting, our love is real He knows me better than all Always been there; catches me before I fall He places no one before me In his eyes love is all I see No matter the time of day A simple call and he’s on his way I do the same for him With him I always win So why is it that we love Yet we cannot be This is the unanswered question That continues to haunt me Lay

Think you’ve got the workplace blues No matter what work you do These words will hopefully inspire you Yes, your job may be redundant But the paychecks are abundant Some days you will get off track But the next day know your plan of attack Bring a smile and get it back If your productivity is ever low Learn from the experience and continue to grow Remember, “You reap what you sow” Keeping a positive attitude can sometimes be rough Remembering your mission and purpose is often enough Embrace what’s in your control and let go of the small stuff There’s no need to be discouraged Each day someone’s dreams you encourage As cliché’ as it may seem You are the gateway to many dreams Recognize the value in what that means No need for the Workplace Blues Instead, work on the attitude you choose Think of the many lives enriched by you Lay

She’s my little Diva An overachiever Will debate till you believe her She’s strong willed Not easily thrilled Tells you exactly how she feels She’s a mini me Quite a beauty Filled with desire and creativity She loves fashion Shops with passion Won’t leave till she’s matching She’s my little Diva Saen; my heart's keeper My love for her runs deeper Lay

Who I am when no one sees a pit of blackness overcomes me all hopes lost to depression's disease desire claimed by minds tragedy This tragedy is ME A broken soul closed in bleeding heart of memories begin replaying scenes of dark and grim inflicting torture again and again This is My tragedy within No food, no drink, no air no sleep; a living nightmare into demon eyes I stare I have no courage or fear This tragedy My Tragedy is everywhere … Lay

no one will win unless someone gives in ~ only then can compromise be found … Lay

Instincts can do harm ~ when insecurities trigger the alarm Lay

*****BEWARE ~ reads the file***** Love-struck mothers in denial while the pedophile robs the innocent child Lay

My heart now his … lain atop his chest rhythmically beats as we take breath His hands passion filled covet my mane blissfully, driving me insane Lay

Jumbled and sloppy broken, tattered, and choppy Yet, you are mine Random revels revealed disfigured characters concealed Still, you are mine Scattered moments thoughts of the day things remembered and things to pray reflective art penned Blue Black or Grey memories forever on display Yes, you are mine Your canvas has many forms computer, napkin blank, lined, or torn Your beauty shines Though... you make no sense sometimes Still, you are mine My poetry line Lay

With slow ~ feathered Finger tips … You softly Outline my lips Kisses I long for them Your gentle kisses My smile, your grin Remember when … Lay

I gaze aimlessly through my reflection in the window at a shameless body of blackness Motionless, it breathes as my tears crash against the rocky moon glisten falling into the city view Glistening lights dance in the heavens above me, to the rhythm of blowing winds while trees stand alone and their branches sway Encircled by high-rise and highway surrounded by life’s ever changing melody, it flows it flows endlessly into the arms of my dark horizon Just 14 Years Old Ripe and ready to mold Searching for love She was unaware She was never told Her story I will unfold … Scarred and out of control Fragile and naïve, yet bold She believed all the lies he sold On her finger he placed gold He promised her love More than she could ever dream of … Guidance she lacks Violence and pain she attracts He stopped her dead in her tracks Her body he attacked Her heart he cracked Her face he smacked Her eyes he blacked Her mind he whacked Her life he trapped … Lay

Lashes unleashed leave Welted wounds scattered Blue body battered T ender to the touch broken blistering skin Blue seen within A bruised body heals But a broken mind always feels Blue bruises everywhere Lay

~ Who am I ~ The epitome of independent ~ definition of pain ~ despair ~ heartache ~ love ~ loss ~ and undeniable strength and triumph through it all. ~ Never been perfect and don’t want to be ~ Who I am is okay with me. ~ ~ Who I am ~ Complicated ~ Strong Willed ~ Aggressive ~ Blunt ~ Honest ~ Open minded ~ Driven ~ Self-Motivated ~ Optimistic ~ Beautiful ~ Loving ~ Eloquent ~ Poetic ~ and Free … ~ I am All Woman ~ open your eyes, mind, and heart ~ Only then will you see ~ All this woman ~ all of me … Lay

Will you inspire my creativity? Will you believe in my dreams? Will you hear my silent cry? Will you always be on my team? Will you promise never to lie? Will you know without asking why? Will you understand my pain? Will you care when I won't? Will you give when I can't? Will you comfort when I don't? Will you do it without gain? Will you grow with me by your side? Will you think of me with pride? Will you share your life with me? Will you love me eternally? Lay

I sit back and marvel in thoughts of you Sometimes our reality is conflicted I'm unable to handle what's true So confused about what to do My friend without strings… I do miss you so This bears no question I hope you feel it, I pray you know that which I cannot say What's sometimes hard to show Speechless, numb, and empty A mute, my voice is truly yours Without you I'm uninspired Wordless… I miss you I miss you so… Lay

The greatest blessings of her life Her children ~ their life She ~ a young mother Blessed with two A miracle ~ twin boys This is true! Unafraid! Though Both body and mind were bruised Eyes big and BLACK Her love and womb grew At first KICK She stumbled ~ her body recovered At first KICK She knew ~ God’s blessing she discovered A miracle the abuse Did not end A miracle her dreams Are in God’s hands … Lay

Desires unfulfilled affection gone astray needs ignored and imagination plays in bed alone emotions groan mind begins to roam LOVE soon leaves home Lay Lay

My love for you ~flows~ it flows like ocean ripples a constant tide of continuous current spinning ~Flows~ like a melody of falling raindrops in a puddle of passion My love ~flows~ free as the wind off a riverbed serene as an ocean view Lay

TWO loving eyes brighten your skies making joy rise TWO feet running … pitter-patter forgetting instantly what was the matter your face wears a smile in your voice—laughter TWO little hands reached out for you heart beats on command benevolence grew Father and Son a beautiful vision of two unquestionable love unbreakable bond this is my vision of you ONE of many reasons I love you … Lay

There are no words powerful enough to say The sorrow and regret she feels every day No excuse great enough to heal All the pain and shame she feels She rises with memories at the break of day On bended knee for them each night she prays That wherever they may be today That her love would comfort them in some way On her mind and heart they will forever stay Through her soul they were born From her life they were torn Lay

Roaming eyes hide despicable lies inappropriate touch your kiss … too much Removed from bed lain in yours tears shed still … you took more and more … Lay

You enter her… mind Bent over like… a rocking chair Comforting her with words Your poetic stare… Undressing her passion Baring her essence to you Each curve revealing A new line or two Lay

Two bodies lay sleeping their souls played hearts beat in tandem beneath sheets of gray One dreams of the other their bodies drew together as one embracing love as two Lay

~HER~ Hope was crushed by pregnant dreams Her … faith forgotten or so it seemed … ~HER~ Struggles went unknown Pain bred unseen Her … heart beat alone LOVEs hurt SCREAMS ~HER~ Gates of HEAVEN opened ESSENCE flowed through HER frail life now full everlasting LOVE ensued Lay

Learn to listen like a Teddy Bear intensely with a compassionate stare Learn to see the world like a Teddy Bear with glossy eyes filled with nothing but care Learn to feel emotion like a Teddy Bear softly lined with cotton, filled with comfort to share Learn to love like a Teddy Bear with arms open and always there Lay

My chest … impacted With passion pouring Love overflowing at my core My soul … longs for affection As our mind and bodies entwine Yearning still … for desire filled Words … time after time Lay

Sexually rejected Emotionally lost Heart's unprotected Romancing loveless thought Lay

Someone give me a reason to smile A number to dial Someone give me advice today Chase my worries away Someone give me a reality check My mind's a wreck! Lay

Passion pen Paint My Way Cover my flaws Create my fate Let His lines Live in me Lay my path Lead me to thee … Lay

She's lost in a naked dream Baring all to see With each keystroke Undressing all of me Baring all to see Revealing vulnerability Undressing all of me Stings so painstakingly Revealing vulnerability With each keystroke Stings so painstakingly She's lost in a naked dream Lay

My Precious Child I am so very proud of you Your life was my dream One surrendered long ago I am so very proud of you You are my hope realized One surrendered long ago You are my answered prayer You are my hope realized Your life was my dream You are my answered prayer My Precious Child Lay

Everything I want is embedded in the eyes of my children in smiles twinkling bright as lights on the Christmas Tree in gentle spirits full of giving filled with emotion and neighborly affections in hugs that wrap my soul like a gift layered in love Everything I want for Christmas is in the eyes, smiles, spirits, and unconditional love of my children Lay

I have missed you Yes, you… The way you feel Against my bare skin Just right… Your smooth texture And slender lines Create the perfect point For me… You glide evermore Never failing to leave Your mark… A smudge imprinted Along lines of glory My perfect story With you… I'm never lonely Or at a loss for words You, yes, you… The one who captures my grin Reveals my sin and lifts my chin Yes, you… My pen Lay

I wish for love Overflowing with passion Strong as an ocean wave And peace Silent as an evening sky Lay

Walking away from someone you love Trotting the path of friend If I had to do it all over I’m certain I’d do it again Walking away from someone you love Not something I wanted to do But something I knew I must My heart's still in love But it’s my mind I had to trust Walking away from someone you love The memories… laughter… and tears Letting these things go Is what I most feared Oh, how I pray my heart will heal Walking away from someone you love Looking forward to a future Unsure of what will be there I opened the door of uncertainty Stepped onto roads unclear My destination’s still unknown I only hope to land in love and care Lay

I ache in desperation To cling closely As if one with his shadow I ache with envy Each time his attention I’m deprived of Yet… It’s held by someone else I ache with separation That comes and goes So easily to him I ache for him I ache because of him I ache within My ache is him Lay

From my chair I gaze upon her Just across the room sits A pink scarfed girl One I’ve seen many times before Her mouth moves … gracefully And ever so much I watch in loving wonder Intrigued by what she wonders Beneath the cotton draped layers Of her knitted accessory As her eyes join mine once more And pierce my reality Filling it with schoolgirl imagery She twirls the frayed ends Of her knitted accessory With careless innocence As she speaks to the monkey On her finger and then to me Freeing me from the bounds Of my reality From the limitations Of a lost imagination Lay

So … she loves you but must leave too a frightening thought yet, one so true A book she writes dedicated to you in return she received a mere line or two Her doubts confirmed by this blatant inaction no plea for forgiveness or promise of retraction 3 Family Secrets Lay

The cries of a silent heart In the face of pain Pumps dry tears Whispers of a broken heart Inconspicuously smile Shattered words Lay

Whirlwind eclipse of emotions shadow her descent Falling like a deflated balloon against the masons hand Crushed Love escapes her callused grasp Lay

On wooden bench and fresh mulch Rattles the keys of life By freckled mammals Grazing asphalt pastures Aimlessly … missing The rumble of ocean pastel backdrops Voice of winds Caressing ears and cheek alike Golden heat rays pour Reflective images of stars Whilst blades of yellow Brown or green Stand still And nature sway Lay

impossible obedience required as she melted with reluctance in familiar mystery a lonely splendor broken by bewildered whispers and weak hearts unite Lay

Coffee… with extra cream Steamy hot Appeal… Extra sweet This can't be real Whipped… Thick yet lean Intoxicating scene Ohh… That coffee smile Curves my lips Anxiously awaiting My first sip Lay

His morning smile Covers my heart In a thousand grains Of love-drenched sand Injected with rays of sun To heat my core His evening smile Like a falling star Against moon's reflection Draws me closer To his telescopic view Of my love within Lay

Ambiguity in love is Blasphemous at best Comfort and compassion give Disillusion rest ~To weary hearts, an unknown guest~ Lay

A Heart like Yours reminds Me why true Love Is the greatest gift anyone can give Lay

Love Spicy, aphrodisiac, Giving, embracing, indulging, Passion, flames, Devil, burn Aching, stinging, throbbing, Hurt, broken, Pain Lay

Her temple yearns For heavenly winds That sing melodies Only she can hear It yearns For clay-soaked hands Drenched in passion That mold her fabrics within Only she can feel Lay

Your Love fills my cup It overflows with Passion soaked kisses From forehead to Toe… It wraps my essence In hugs drenched With tenderness Securing my Heart… It pounds In tandem to Sounds of joy in Tunes only you can Play… Your love strikes My chords with Melodious precision Your vibratos are all Mine… Lay

Iridescent hues of fallacy Mask the chains that pierce This bruised soul… Born with burn stains Of her native land Tattooed in tiding teardrops… Her cascading locks Choke a history of Troubled legacies…still Visible are remnants Of a crimson flag Permanently adorning Her battered life’s past… Lay

As each dawn draws nearer to its dusk, I’m one step closer to you. One more day of life united under sun and moon shadows. From snowstorms to sun showers, our seasons grow colorful. Painted in shades of rainbow passion. Each moment nurtures our love blooms. Lay

Perhaps it’s a bit PESSIMISTIC Of me to say “life is an ANGRY HORROR” Without your CLEAR reflection And SLEEK body IRONICALLY, I dropped you last week On your HEAD no less So, your warning LIGHTS are now faded Though, I’m OPTIMISTIC you’ll still work Through the shattered CRACKS Of your FRAIL face I’m still SAD You’ve always connected me And protected me with PLAYFUL Yet, POMPOUS ring tones However AMUSED, I am not If ever RESIGNED to utilize The GLOOMY technology Of FORMAL years gone by I’d most definitely CRY! MATTER-OF-FACT Greater are the DAYS of INFORMAL communication Internal INTERNET SOCIAL MEDIA SITES All PASSWORD protected So SUSPICIOUS late night Text messages won’t warrant WITTY comments or SERIOUS disagreements… Lay

Then… In your eyes my love once showed In your smile my heart did grow In your touch my passion flowed Now… In your words my heart breaks In your arms I have no place In your life there's no space Lay

Lain in bed dreaming Of hallowed whispers Spoken in baritone harmony Mind manifesting cries In instrumental song That sing soothing melodies To my wailing heart I'm held by a symphony Of falling teardrops That dance To a love ballad Of drunken romance, While hymns I pen, And my crushed comforts Are captured By cracked stanzas… My poetic cure will Forever be tuned In chords Of expletive Love Lay

I am a product of everything you didn't do You are the white powder on my top lip As my body shakes and shifts Praying this will help my spirits lift Just a product of what you didn't do All I think, all I say, all I do The way I fall over and over again For the same no-good dude Knowing he'll beat me till black and blue I am a product of you Each time I look at a reflection of me A helpless version of you Is all I see Yet another cracked product of you Still searching, I look as if hooked On the natural curve of my bloodstained lips Layers of clothes Hiding my natural born gifts Ripped pants over my bruises And heart shaped hips I am a battered version of you Each step I take is magnified Hiding the pain I bear inside Because of all you didn't do I walk with broken dreams and head held high A Broken heart Pumped with fake pride Infected with love lies When reality is I just wish I'd die I am a broken product of you How about when I...

Ironically, the "peace" you seek I sought too Only not in a dream This is the reality I choose Here, there are no "daiquiris" Or "dancing" No loveless romancing No more chasing chances Hoping that love enhances In a heart that's bare One that shows No compassion, no care And especially when it counts Never being there With words of love I never hear My peace has No expectations of tomorrow Waking with sorrows Created by torturous choices Ignoring inner intuition, Inner voices My peace won't allow my heart to lead While my mind grieves Or let my body's desires Make me weak In the search for unattainable love I seek In my reality, I'm happy I have found peace… Lay

Am I ~ a good mother Does she ~ feel how much I love her Can she ~ see the sacrifices I make Will she ~ understand they are in her namesake While my mind and heart were at war My “hero” ~ had something in store She ~ rescued me once more With a phone call from 700 miles away Enthusiasm in her voice ~ she went on to say “Guess what mommy; I have to write an essay” Topic: “The most important woman in my life” Her words gently removed depressions knife She ~ pulled my spirit from home in the dark afterlife She ~ continued with a few questions for me Answers she already had ~ all I did was agree If only she knew ~ how much doubt filled my mind “Am I a good mother” ~ how could I be so blind Is it wrong for me to be so far away Will it hinder the bond we’ve held since her “birth” day Without being burdened with question nor task She ~ rescued and reassured me in a flash Now when in doubt or I can’t find my way I pray my guardian angel answers ~ as she did today Down o...

Who are these bourgeois bees What makes them better than you and me Why are their noses in the air With fake nails and purchased hair So they wear designer bags Clothes from fashion mags Does real beauty come in a price tag They have attitude for days Ugly and malicious ways Expects a man to pay their way And then wonder why they don’t stay ~ Bourgeois bees ~ Please ~ Stop looking down on the rest Because you think you have what’s best Stop driving a Benz with no ends Always relying on no good men Stop judging a book by its cover Turn the page and see what you discover Stop pretending to live the good life When you know you’re living trife Stop being so conceited and vain It only attracts the fake and lame ~ Bourgeois bees ~ be real ~ Please ~ Lay

My heart beats like thunder … I try To stop the wonder in my mind But the pictures replay As if in rewind Sweaty and unsteady are my hands … I try Calming my emotion—thinking of the ocean I’m drowned by the sound Of the whiplash in my past It's heavy and strangling me … I try But I can’t breathe The pain is lingering in my chest Like I’m in cardiac arrest I want to cry … I try But the tears won’t fall They’re held back—entrapped By this ANXIETY ATTACK! Lay

She grew cold She could not be consoled Her future’s untold … Lay

A prayer for my girls—if I should die before I wake To my girls I would write: Mommy will always love you ~ I never placed anyone above you You are my world and the reason for my life ~ I did my best, though I didn’t get everything right You both gave me the courage and strength to fight ~ Your lives gave me direction, and your love was my light Even though my body is no longer here ~ don’t you fear ~ my spirit is always near Each night you get on your knees to pray ~ remember this prayer ~ Promise me to say: “Dear God, please tell Mommy we said hi That we understand that all people must die We know she is safe with You in the sky She is an angel with wings and can now fly We promise to make her proud Our dreams will reach beyond the clouds Tell her that we are okay and we remember her every day She is in our hearts, where she will forever stay We know she did her best ~ and that her soul can now rest Please tell Mommy we love her again and again…” Amen Lay

~~~~~~~~~~ Just when she thinks the coast is clear In walks the ghost with a smile and a can of beer “Come over here—let me tell you a story” “Sit on my lap—you don’t have to worry” “Do as I say and it won’t be gory” Pay Attention ~~~~~~~~~~ As the ghost tells his bedtime story Strokes her hair and tells her not to worry Listening to this ghost and his horrific sounds Her body is stiff, her heart pounds She tries not to cry as his pants begin to round Pay Attention ~~~~~~~~~~ “You know I love you” the story begins “Don’t tell mommy” the story ends Back in bed alone in the dark The ghost and his beer have left their mark An innocent “bedtime story” is how it all starts Lay

She is but eleven She is my angel sent from heaven She came to me at the tender age of twenty-one She gave me reason not to run She kept me grounded She was the reason my heart pounded She made my life brand new She healed my heart through and through She showed me how to love She showed me what that stuff is made of She keeps me on my toes She won’t allow me to wallow in my woes She senses when my spirits are low She will never let it show but She always seems to know She amazes me every day she grows She knows when to lean in and give me a hug She knows when I’ve had a bad day and not to bug She jumps in before I ask She completes every task She excels in academics and dance She shows me what can be if given a chance She picks up my good bits and pieces She continues to leave me speechless She always wears a smile She is my amazing child She is my first, no one is above She is my first true love She is my daughter Alaya Before her I was a zero She is my...

~I wish for you today~ Peace, Happiness, and Love; abundantly May your footsteps in life lead to prosperity ~I wish for you today~ Your heart’s greatest desire That you are granted the knowledge you require To put away the pain and let go of that blazing fire ~I wish for you today~ Strength to endure and overcome The challenges you face in the name of your son So you and he can be in peace as one ~**I wish for you today**~ Vision to see me as I see you Courage to see us as one and not two Faith to trust in me and comfort knowing that I Love You ~* * *I wish for you today* * *~ Blessings from the one above That he guide your way in life and love I wish these things for you today I pray for them every day Happy Birthday Handsome Lay

She’s my little Diva An overachiever Will debate till you believe her She’s strong willed Not easily thrilled Tells you exactly how she feels She’s a mini me Quite a beauty Filled with desire and creativity She loves fashion Shops with passion Won’t leave till she’s matching She’s my little Diva Saen; my heart's keeper My love for her runs deeper Lay

So what’s good for you is not for me Brother Please This day and at my age I will close the chapter and burn your page With no hurt feelings, tears, or rage So, you think I’m blind to your despicable deeds Brother Please I will continue to fulfill your every need While your ego I creatively feed Planting my own painful seeds In the end it’s your heart that bleeds Brother Please As you go about your normal routine Thinking I’m clueless behind the scenes Know that I am far from green Realize I am a queen Both my mind and body are mean I am an asset to any team Lay

With slow ~ feathered Finger tips … You softly Outline my lips Kisses I long for them Your gentle kisses My smile, your grin Remember when … Lay

Friend, confidant, now lover of mine I prayed for you asked God for a sign With your poetic pen and creative mind with your support and voice I found mine Revealed first in melody, then in rhyme verse after verse line after line My soul-mate, my friend in you, I see no end I have life again with you … I am … Lay

Peacefully you slept my handsome angel whose heart I kept safe and secure I protected it … with intentions pure love everlasting no pain would you endure you were my angel I was your cure … to my surprise you were an angel in disguise you touched my heart but heard no cries my face was dry … filled with pride my mind wept while to my face you lied … Why handsome angel why lie to me on your wings I was home in your arms I was free now I fly alone this didn’t have to be … My handsome angel I’ve let go of your wings I have set your heart free now fly on and be happy you are now and forever a forbidden angel to me … K isses Forehead ~ cheeks ~ chin Remember when … On the nape of my neck I smile, you grin Lay

So many thoughts come to mind If only “I could really go back in time” Change or undo my life’s violent and sexual crimes Tell those around me to “open their eyes” “Pay Attention to the signs” If only one wish could really rewind Those pedophilic hands of my lifetime … Then I stopped and started to think “Who would I be if this didn’t happen to me? What of the woman I’d come to be The wisdom I’d come to see And my children whose lives are abuse free” As a result of my past … my history … Now, with eyes wide and mind free Heart pounding, air, and life in me Blessed with children to continue my legacy, Equipped with words and strength to share my story … my poetry I’d wish only to open the eyes of the blind The mouths of the abused and the hearts of our society … I’d make them see … I’d make them see So no other child has to end up like me … Lay

Help me smother this irritation ~ with lines and punctuations ~ Feed me pronouns ~ to drown incompetent sounds ~ Nouns to block inevitable frowns ~ verbs to calm nerves ~ Synonyms to perpetuate and penetrate minds ~ antonyms to reiterate in rhyme~ Give me a vocabulary of words to express my perturb ~ why must people be so absurd Lay

Remembering … The way you smile Dimples, deep as my love Teeth that sparkle Lighting my heart's way … I remember … Tracing each curve of your lips Gently … leading me Through the brisk path Of your manicured beard Stopping only to marvel At the natural arch Of your brow Falling still … upon eyes I’ve known Yet, still hold the power To pierce my soul I surrendered … my lips and love Unto you … 6 New Beginnings Lay

Clawing cages of invisible affection Shackled to imaginary joy Bound by blind rejection Embracing the insecure Heart lost in minds war Hand bleeds emotion raw Unto a bottomless pit of paper Battered words and pain pour Each burned with stains of false hope Fueled by illusions of love to cope 5 Reposed Love Lay

HE walks slowly along the engorged path of midnight madness. Spilling crude pain each crippling step of the way. With angular eyes a fertile grim heart and an infinitely defective MIND…HE quietly steals the innocence of glossy blossoms who unknowingly sprout or roam HIS gritty black trail… Forever tarnishing bushy roots and buds once pure, mutilating their body, their growth, their essence and more. Leaving behind Midnight Madness spores… Lay

My words are BLEAK ~As EMPTY emotions NUMB as a sleeping limb ~They’re VOID of Reciprocal LOVE ~Which once Touched Tingled and TRANSFORMED ~Them into LIFE Now BEFUDDLED… ~Struggling to find Worthy adjectives to Inspire ~A forgotten MAZE of Nouns BURIED deep within my ~Sublime subconscious Lay

You live life tit for tat. Damn, I wish you'd "tat" me back! Just once… Be there for me As I have been for you. When it counts Why must things always "FALL" through? Here's friendship lesson 101… Hopefully, you'll get it before I'm done. Try going out of your way Without being asked Try being selfless in this task There will be no tangible reward or recognition Gratification is in giving Listen with nonjudgmental ears As I express my craziness My pain and My darkest fears Please keep those hyper-critical opinions to yourself Bite your tongue… I'll let you know when it's okay to share And remember… at least pretend you care. Open your mind Be grateful sometimes Be happy when I shine! Stop turning up your nose Deeming others "GHETTO" Based on stereotypes You know nothing of their struggle or strife Or how they live Or what battles they fight Stop listening to the hype You might be surprised By who and ...

Like a Band-Aid on a gushing WOUND She will never be enough to hold it all together… Merely a temporary FIX That led to a long-term problem… She seeped skin at the seams and crusted over… You infused with her inevitable infection… RAW And bred unending pain unknowingly… Now both ends hold on for dear LIFE pulling at the weakened scab Smothering it with generic “HOME” remedies but nothing can prevent the impending deterioration… So, day by day the superficial grime GROWS and the unnatural wear shows… Your Internal defenses begin peeling away Her unyielding grip…While External elements reactively reinforce this permanent SEPARATION. Lay

Lain in bed dreaming Of hallowed whispers Spoken in baritone harmony Mind manifesting cries In instrumental song That sing soothing melodies To my wailing heart I'm held by a symphony Of falling teardrops That dance To a love ballad Of drunken romance, While hymns I pen, And my crushed comforts Are captured By cracked stanzas… My poetic cure will Forever be tuned In chords Of expletive Love Lay

My words are lost in ink stains Verses smudged in prints of you Illegible scribbles soon fill in lines Once paved with love anew Now only paperless pain ensues An unnatural sequence of thoughts Scribed in distressed hues of blue Will reactively release your grip But the pain it can’t undo Now only agony grew My heart and hands weep, writing of tomorrow My paper and pen are tempered in sorrow My emotions bellow wallows Of a mournful mind I pray This too Shall pass In time… Lay

I wrote a book created in love… dedicated to you What more could I say? Tell me, what more could I do? In matters of love, I was always the giver In matters of affection… you never delivered You continue to blame my actions of a distant past A past when our foundation wasn’t even cast Yet I accepted it and tried to prove my fruitfulness I gave my all to prove I’m faithful, to prove my truthfulness In return, I received constant slaps in the face Resistance, brick walls, and distance With you, I was always on a chase You never really had to put much work in It’s partly my fault that I was never on the receiving end Considering it’s been this way since we began I was constantly ignored… while all my love and soul I poured Into you… In your eyes, I wished to be ‘the one’ In my arms, I embraced and loved your son Still, in me you saw a reason not to trust… and even more reasons to run You opened my heart… and drove away pains of my past In the end, I gained strength… so...